well derek and i broke up on the 14th, there are a few reasons and im not gonna realy go into it, but he said he isnt in love with me anymore and im not the person hw wants anymore.im a freakin wreck right now, I dont know if i can deal with this, im going to be staying at the apartment till i can get a full time job and get an apartment, hes also going to be buying me a car. this sint what i want, but i cant do anything about it. who knows if we will get back together in the future, i hope so. its nonstop crying, and everytime i cry so does jayden, i cant do this… im so scared…. im going to miss doing things as a family…..
listen to me rambling on….. if thats not bad enough our 4 year anniversary is on 8/14. i never thought this would happen. my poor child, he wont be able to see his dad everyday, and that hurts so bad… how could i be such a bad mom and let this happen…. its so unfair to him…..
im so glad i have hin, i dont know what i would do if i didnt have him. anyway, i will talk to you all later
Love Jamey